Archive for ‘life’

August 13th, 2014


Don’t go blonde, and don’t suddenly forget the password to your blog. You won’t be able to log in. Noted.

I have wrinkles. I didn’t before and now I do. Suddenly. A couple of days ago I was cleaning the kitchen and picked up the waffle iron. While I was moving it, I glanced at my reflection and noticed them: wrinkles around my eyes. Later I double checked with a mirror, still there. Age happens slowly and yet all at once.

I have two toddlers; two little people who both want to be in charge. There are a lot of fits, tears, crumbs on the floor, late nights, wee mornings. Going anywhere seems like a major production. And yet, in the calm moments that always come and they’re playing, giggling, reading and singing to each other, I just want to freeze them. Don’t grow, please don’t grow. I dread the days when my hands will be empty of the little fingers tugging me on.

Earlier this week Lilly insisted that I watch “Rozen” with her. I sat with her curled up on my lap with her fingers in her hair. Don’t grow, please don’t grow. Can’t she always fit perfectly nestled in my lap?

At bedtime, again she’s cuddled in my lap with her fingers in her hair. I feel her body relax as she falls asleep. I feel her breath on my face. Don’t grow, please don’t grow.

I listen to endless stories of dragons, planes, fires, vehicles and superheroes. David’s always excited about something, and always has something to share. To say. Don’t grow, please don’t grow.

David called to me with a whisper from his bed as I walked out of their room. I knelt by his bed, “Don’t leave yet, you didn’t kiss me goodnight!” Don’t grow, please don’t grow.

David played with Legos for the first time over the weekend. Hours and hours of playing, building, demolishing and staging. It was the beginning of a new chapter for him as he goes from toddler to kid. So fun to watch, and yet, so hard to accept. Don’t grow, please don’t grow.

I know there are so many fun, important things to look forward to. It’s so rewarding to see their faces as they discover something new and exciting to them. When they learn new things and go new places. I know growing up is literally the point of life, but can’t it take a little longer?

March 21st, 2014

high five for friday

I’ve read that Some E-Card (probably pinned on Pinterest or posted on Facebook) that goes, “I’m so glad it’s Friday! Oh wait, I’m a mom.” I feel that way a lot — the weekends don’t really mean much because they’re basically the same as every other day, but on the other hand, I do have to admit that Fridays do have a different feeling and pace. Friday is just a special day of the week.

Five “highs” from today, so far:

  • I went to the gym this morning, marking 3 total trips this week. My buns (legs, arms, neck) are sorer than sore, but it feels good.
  • I finally broke down and did some chores I’ve been putting off. Huzzah!
  • Lilly is talking! She’s been for a while, but it makes me so so SO happy every single day.
  • Lilly went potty in the toilet 5 days in a row this week! We haven’t been successful today, but there’s still time…
  • David still says “thank you” for his birthday presents (and lists them) in his prayers. He’s such a sweet reminder of gratitude and appreciation for the simple things.

Here’s a virtual high five for each of you. Now, put a smile on your face and make today wonderful.

January 27th, 2014

my somethings

something about yesterday

Yesterday was a regional conference for our church. Due to having two young children I usually don’t look forward to these types of meetings because I don’t feel like I get much out of them (because I’m in a wrestling match while everyone else is listening). However, yesterday I heard just what I needed to hear, despite the kids.

something I do well

Play. I really like to play and I think I’m good at it. I like to play anything: games, “pretend,” with toys.

something about my childhood

I had a divinely happy childhood full of love, games, and lots of playing, building and dressing up with my 3 sisters and 1 brother.

something I can’t live without

Chocolate. More and more I find myself in need of chocolate. I can do without the other sweets, but chocolate seems to be the mortar that holds me together. I think I bleed chocolate.

something I listen to

A couple of weeks ago while I was traveling to Idaho with Lilly, I heard the song Homeward Bound sung by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. I’d heard the song many times before, but for some reason it just resonates with something in my soul right now. It really hits me deep.

In the quiet misty morning, when the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing and the sky is clear and red,
When the summer’s ceased its gleaming, when the corn is past its prime,
When adventure’s lost its meaning, I’ll be homeward bound in time.

Bind me not to the pasture. Chain me not to the plow.
Set me free to find my calling and I’ll return to you somehow.

If you find it’s me you’re missing, if you’re hoping I’ll return,
To your thought I’ll soon be list’ning; in the road I’ll stop and turn.
Then the wind will set me racing as my journey nears its end,
And the path I’ll be retracing when I’m homeward bound again.

Bind me not to the pasture. Chain me not to the plow.
Set me free to find my calling and I’ll return to you somehow.

In the quiet misty morning when the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing, I’ll be homeward bound again.

January 12th, 2014

please pass the “catchup”

Holy smokes! I knew it had been a while since I posted on the blog, feeling guilty I finally logged in and realized it’s been 4 MONTHS since my last post. I’m so shocked and ashamed. It’s the longest I’ve gone without posting. Yuck.

The beginning of the year is the best time to start anew, right? So here we go, a brief update on our (partially nutso) lives of the last 4 months:

  • I was writing for a writing agency for a while and enjoyed it quite a bit, though I learned a lot about how to manage my time differently since it consumed a lot of time I had been spending doing other things (mostly sewing, but also doing laundry, cooking and caring for children).
  • Short story, Matt’s current business slowed down and we saw an opportunity to branch out of the life and business started in college and check out new career paths, opportunities, etc. In the meantime, we both worked. Matt worked at his business and also for a transportation company and I got a job working evenings and saturdays for a health supplement and all-natural cleaning company. Looooonnnnng days for both of us.
  • With some spiritual intervention, Matt took a job offer to work for his dad in California and we suddenly found ourselves out of familiar, chilly Rexburg and living in sunny California (it was only 3 weeks from the time we made the decision to move until we were pulling out of Rexburg).
  • We are living in Matt’s parents’ basement “apartment” while he works for his dad and continues to look for that career opportunity we’re sure is out there and I help with projects, take care of kids and adjust to life outside western-ville.
  • The kids are just as cute as ever and Lilly is FINALLY talking (mini party going on now) and David is just as much a little dude as he’s ever been.
  • Oh, and David went to preschool for a couple months in there too. Dang it.

Seriously, I’m so behind. I might cry, but not now I have more writing to do.


September 3rd, 2013

adulthood, one step at a time

I found my first grey hair last month.

 teeny tiny grey hair


Here’s my progress on becoming a full-fledged adult

Decide to suddenly start a writing “career” and apply to writing agency: check

Write for agency and get totally in-sweats-all-day swamped: check

LinkedIn profile started and completed: check

Twitter account opened: check, nothing to Tweet about yet

Install a for real calendar on my phone: check, even scheduled some things

Write an about page for blog: check

Take a break from writing and go on sewing spree: check; 5 new pillows and new doll stroller seat done, 15 fishies still in progress

Update blog: 15 drafts and climbing




August 16th, 2013

post #210

I spend a lot of time blogging about the kidlets–as you know–so I wanted to take a break from their cuteness and share a little about myself.

A few really honest things about me:

1. Hate me if you want to, but I’m not really fond of animals.

2. I’m lazy. I’ve been trying to deny it and pretend otherwise my whole life, but I’m lazy. I can hear some of your eyes rolling, but this is about me being honest, and if I’m honest, I’m lazy. Not the sit-on-the-couch-all-day lazy (okay, maybe some days), more the I’m-always-looking-for-a-shortcut lazy.

3. I’m motivated by results, so when I do things I like to do A LOT of things all at once. Thus, I seem like a really productive, non-lazy person. Fooled ya.

4. I’m vain. Another thing I’ve been trying to pretend I’m not. If there’s a reflective surface, you better believe I’ve already looked at myself in it. I wear make up to take out the trash.

5. I’m a really bad dancer. BAD. I’ve been told many times that I dance like Elaine from Seinfeld. Not growing up watching the show, I didn’t understand the reference, and then I watched it on YouTube. People aren’t wrong.

6. Today was the first time I showered since Sunday. It’s currently Friday (reference #2 for more information). I promise I wasn’t too gross.

7. I hate crying, going to the bathroom, and the smell of raw fish.

8. Every night before I go to sleep I always think about my kids.

9. I make up random, nonsensical songs, pet names and expletives.

10. I would still play with Barbies if it were socially acceptable. Yes, I’m counting down the days until Lilly is old enough to play with the two hidden in my craft stuff.

August 14th, 2013

a day in the life on a monday

6:40am Wake up to smoke detector beeping and listen to it for 15 minutes before finally getting tired of it and going downstairs and finding a new battery

7:00 Snuggle back in bed and read emails (all junk ads) and the news

7:35 Joined by David for more snuggles. Wake up Lilly and go downstairs. Unload dishes, eat breakfast, make lunch for Matt, send Matt off, get kids dressed, start some laundry

9:00 Clean kitchen and load dishes, watch the kids play in an old box, write a blog post, write emails, pay bills (yuck), switch laundry

11:30 Snack time and bubbles

12:00 Put Lilly down for a nap

1:10 Lunch with David (PB&J and fresh fruit & yogurt parfaits)

1:40 Start a movie for David, fold two loads of laundry (no matter how many times I watch the YouTube videos I can’t fold a fitted sheet to save my life), vacuum the carpet, clean the bedrooms, read a book, browse Pinterest

3:00 Play trains with David, post a picture on Facebook, eat homemade popsicles on front step, catch a grasshopper, let grasshopper hop away (David calls them “grass POPPERS” because they “pop” out of the grass), feed Lilly lunch/snack


4:20 Take kids to a park to walk explore (David finds a walking stick to whack things with–ouch), pick up some milk, ice cream and special surprises for anniversary next week

6:30 Eat dinner, have family night, play games, clean up toys

7:30 Bedtime routine, put kids in bed (Hallelujah chorus)

8:00 Start an episode of Doctor Who with Matt

8:45 David gets up, Matt goes to be the parent and I load the dishes

9:15 Finish Doctor Who and talk to Matt about life, houses, kids

10:35(ish) Go upstairs to get ready for bed

August 8th, 2013

dinosaur sickness

A few months ago I checked out a special take-home dinosaur theme bag from the library. David loves dinosaurs, and we were so excited to enjoy all the dinosaur goodness. The bag had a T-Rex puppet and a dinosaur book called T is for Terrible. And it was terrible. From the time we opened the bag until I took it back to the library, all we knew was sickness.

terrible no good sickness bag

First of all, the book really was awful. The basic plot was the T-Rex saying that he couldn’t help it if it was terrible because that’s just the way he was because he was a dinosaur–not a positive message for kids at all.

As soon as a hand went into the little dinosaur puppet, sickness fell. The first night David got up at 2 or 3 in the morning with the stomach flu, which lasted a few days. Then Matt got sick with a stomach/digestive combination for a few days. About the time it looked like all that was over, Lilly woke up with large welts/bumps/pox/bites on her arms. I took her to the doctor after they were there a few days, and he had no information for us whatsoever. We still don’t know what they were for sure.


One thing is sure though, we aren’t checking out any more specialty theme bags.

August 3rd, 2013

road trippin

In June we drove all the way to Seattle and visited our favorite friends the Davises, and then continued up to Whidbey Island for Matt’s family reunion to celebrate his grandma’s 90th birthday. We had the most wonderful time (okay, except Lilly who was teething and hating being around strangers). I could bore you with lots of words describing everything we did, or I could just share some of our pictures.

together time

July 31st, 2013

5 things that make my mommy life easier

Sometimes being a “grown up” can be a little crazy, especially when you start adding little people that need your [constant] attention. I haven’t been a mom for super long, but 2 years and nine months is long enough to figure out some shortcuts that make my life a little less crazy in a pinch.

my loves

1 Dry Shampoo is my product soulmate. I love love LOVE it. And then a little more love. I discovered it sometime after David was born and it changed my life forever. Seriously, it’s a big deal. Do I really need to explain what this does? Oily, yucky I’m-a-mom hair is gone. I have tried all the options under $10 and Suave makes the best drug store variety (it’s also the cheapest I’ve found). The Suave Keratin Infusion (gold can, they also have a variety in a silver can that’s so/so) is the BEST. It doesn’t leave a bunch of residue, makes my hair shiny and fresh (it doesn’t smell nasty like some of them). I snap on a shower cap and shower, but don’t have to worry about drying and restyling my hair every day.

2 Shark Cordless Vacuum/Sweeper This thing is so dang handy. I don’t know if my kids are just ultra messy or what, but our floors get littered with crumbs constantly. I sweep constantly. I vacuum constantly. Or at least I did until we got a Shark. It goes on hard floors and carpet, and sweeps up all the little crumbs. It isn’t as good as a vacuum, obviously, but it sure is nice to have for a quick pick up between vacuuming, and it’s just plain fantastic for the kitchen floor; quick and easy cleanup.

3 iPhone I ask myself constantly how mothers survive without smartphones. Aside from emails, calls, texts, calendars, camera, books, news, and weather right to my pocket, wherever I am, it also contains the answer to all questions in an instant. What time is it? When is David’s next appointment? What lesson am I teaching on Sunday? How do I pick the best cantaloupe? How am I going to get this stain out? What was that recipe, again? And on and on and on. Plus, access to great kid apps for when I REALLY need them distracted. Honestly, it’s the reason I maintained any sanity while breastfeeding David (every two hours, for an hour, for 8 months).

4 Roku I’ll openly admit that this was something Matt really wanted to get for a while before I finally said, “whatever” and let him buy it. I didn’t understand what the big deal was. Now I do. I stinkin’ love this little black box. It streams Netflix and loads of other “channels”–Pandora, PBS kids, Hulu Plus, Mormon Channel, BYUTV, PBS (hello, Downton Abbey), and more–in a click of a button. I can control it with an app on my phone from anywhere in our house. We don’t pay for cable or satellite, and we don’t need it. It also helps that Matt won our current Roku in a contest, so it was completely free (with a year of free Netflix, too).

5 Netflix Like my phone, I don’t know what I would do without Netflix. Instant TV, when I choose. It’s great for movie nights, discovering new shows (we have fallen in love with several BBC shows we found on Netflix), enjoying old favorites, down time for David, etc. They have SO many shows and movies now, including several Disney options. We also have Netflix apps on our phones and the iPad. My favorite thing is that we choose when and what we watch, we don’t have to pay any attention to TV schedules.